Introduction :: Another Mommy Blog!

I've heard that mommy blogs are super popular and there are way too many out there.  Oh well!  I have so many thoughts each day and I don't want to just be putting up tons of Facebook status updates every day to document them all (which I don't do so then I don't write them down at all often).  Instead I want a place to be able to write anything I'm thinking about, and then all our family and friends can go directly to the site instead of me writing many different emails.  And then also, it's all in one place so I can look back, and Elsa can read this blog when she gets older - I'll print it out and put it in her baby book (and typing is way faster than writing and I'll write much more on this blog than I would in her baby book, so it's a win-win!)! 

Elsa will be 1 month old tomorrow!!  It's so crazy that on the one hand I feel like it wasn't nearly a month ago that I gave birth (that day is so strong in my memory, it was completely the most amazing day of my life so far and I wish I could relive it over and over!), and yet I also completely feel like Elsa has been with us and in our lives for much longer than just a month.  So anyway, tomorrow I get to print out a sign that says "I'm 1 month old!" and sit her in a chair next to it for photos!!  Hopefully she won't be fussy so I can get some cute photos - and I want some with just a diaper on and some with a cute baby outfit! 

I also have hardly any photos of her and I together, and really no cute photos or photos of her and I when she's awake (except for one photo I took on my iphone where she's sleeping on me that I like) so I'm going to try to take some good self-portraits of us together tomorrow.  I keep saying I want Jody to take photos of us (and we need some good ones of the three of us, too!) but 1) the sun sets so early now so we could only do it on weekends and 2) on weekends either we do other things and we're tired from it or I don't put on any makeup and at least for the good photos I love, I want makeup on.  I love a couple of the photos from right after she was born in the hospital, but also 95% are horrible of me - I had SO MUCH water retention and literally my second chin was as big as my normal chin and my face looked soooooo huge, so while I love those photos they aren't ones that I would necessarily print out for everyone to see.

Here's the iPhone self-portrait I took, I LOVE LOVE LOVE so much when she's in her little baby ball, it's so so so cute to me!!!  :)  And her cuddling and sleeping on my chest is absolutely one of my favorite things in the whole world, I feel so happy and peaceful and like everything is right with the world when she's like that!

Okay, that's all for my very first post.  I need to try to make this blog look a little customized.  And I want to eventually move it over to my own domain name and use the same blog format that I use for my photography blog so the photos are nice and big!  Big photos are the best!!! 

I have SOOOOOOOOO much to post!!!!  And now that I have a place to do it and can write whatever I want I'll be doing it so much!!!  Coming up will be (not in this order necessarily): Elsa's birth story with photos, my thoughts on my wonderful husband over the past month, Elsa's little boogie and gas and reflux problems, my recent obsession with milestones and wanting to make sure Elsa is developing like she should be, my thoughts on missing being pregnant and adjusting to mommyhood and the lack of independence that goes along with it, my worries about my fur-babies and them being sad, and so many other thoughts and worries and observations and all that!!!  And of course photos!!!  :)

p.s. When I was just finished writing the above stuff, Elsa woke up from her half hour nap, after being awake for 2 1/2 hrs before that, and it took me another hour to get her back to sleep - an hour filled with lots of fussiness and crying.  I will also be occasionally getting some of my frustration out through writing.  I love my little girl so much but it's certainly not always all roses and butterflies and easy, and sometimes I do wish I had an easier baby and that she wasn't so fussy and easily upset.  I try to tell myself that I wasn't an easy baby for my parents when I was really young and I turned out fine, so it's just something we need to get through and I keep hoping that she'll be less fussy when she's a little older and can do more and understand more.  I hope, cause the fussiness is emotionally and mentally exhausting sometimes.  It will probably help me to be able to write down my thoughts when I'm frustrated sometimes or feeling overwhelmed or sad - it always helps me to get things out in writing and then I can go back to being fine.  She's very cutely sleeping now at least, and hopefully she'll be asleep for a few hours now since she's been awake so much, and then when she wakes hopefully she'll be her cute and happy self cause when she's fussy recently I worry so much about her being in pain from gas or reflux and that's so hard, to think of my little girl in pain and me not being able to just fix it for her.  Okay more on that in a later post.  I'm so happy already that I started this blog!